Heal with Cancer – I need a different life

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I need a different life.

I respect what we have built so far, but I can’t help myself, I feel troubled, I feel weak, I feel helpless. Something is wrong.

I need a different life. I can feel something is wrong. I don’t know why, I don’t know what. But we need a different life.

I respect what we have begun, but we began building on the ruins of the old, because the old what the best we knew. I understand. But still, I need something else. I need a different life.

We gathered new information, we went to heavens and down, you can’t tell me that you won’t change your mind. Because something is wrong. I don’t know why, I don’t know what. But we need a different life.

I can sense, I can feel. All the wrong I feel as pain, all the right sets me right. I feel safe, I feel full. So why won’t you listen to me? Why are feelings not enough? How come you can hear words, but feelings you keep out of sight?

I feel, and this is how I know. I know what will happen before it happens, because I can feel it forming. And you who are conforming, you do not see the tidal waves that are ready to emerge.

And after the destruction, you will rush to construction, leaving out reason and the need for clarification. Because you don’t want me to know before you know. You don’t want your bullet-proof plans to be exposed as mere illusions of an adolescent boy.

I am telling you. We need a different life. Don’t grab my hand and pull me in the direction I don’t want to go. Don’t. I feel something is wrong. I feel hurt, I’m in pain. And your indifference makes me feel betrayed.

Can’t you hear me?

I’m in pain. You stick to the old, it hurts me. I need relief, I need comfort, I need kindness, I need your love. I know something is wrong. We need to start a different life.

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Rak i njegovi kardinalni prijatelji…

Dosta je. Dosta je negiranja svega što je Žensko, Osjetljivo, Nježno, Osjećajno, Tiho, Njegujuće.

Dosta je vaših Lažnih Lica kojima se dodvoravate društvu, dok u srcu osjećate nešto drugačije, imate neku drugu Potrebu.

Dosta je prešućivanja vlastitih Potreba, dosta je Sramežljivosti i Plahosti. Vrijeme je da se društvene strukture protrese Emocijom, da progovore glasovi onih koji ovo Društvo čine.

Vrijeme je da budemo nezadovoljni onime što smo stvorili, da cendramo, vrištimo, plačemo, padamo u nesvijest od očaja, pa da se temelji dotrajalih zdanja uruše od naše tuge i našeg razočaranja.

Vrijeme je da slušamo jedni druge, da pričamo o našim povrijeđenostima, bolima, sramotama, da priznamo jedni drugima ono što smatramo da su bile greške, da se izljubimo, izgrlimo, pružimo si potporu i krenemo dalje.

Da krenemo dalje sa sjećanjem na ono najgore sa mišlju ‘Ne ponovilo se nikad’, da hrabro trpimo uspomene na gorke dane da ne bi zastranili, pa da umjesto nečeg novog ne izgradimo opet istu nezamislivo blesavu priču.

Držimo se svoje boli grčevito, da nam bude putokaz, da nas podsjeti kuda ne ići, kuda ne skrenuti.

Primimo svoje suze kao jedini lijek, jedinu pomoć na tom dugačkom, mukotrpnom putu prema visinama, prema Dostojanstvu, prema Integritetu, prema Samodostatnosti.

Da na kraju puta stojimo sami u visinama i gledamo rijeku naših isplakanih suza kako poji druge duše u nevolji, kako im donosi olakšanje, okrepu, izliječenje.

Da na kraju puta stojimo sami i shvatimo – i za druge se isplatilo živjeti.

End of Gemini season, transition into Cancer

How did you spend the end of Gemini season?

I took the role of a Journalist and made an interview! The magic of Gemini brought curiosity and willingness to listen, so I could ask the right questions and extract more valuable information.

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We’re transitioning into Cancer, and the topics in question were related to Women, Feeling, Emotion balanced out with Cancers counterpart, Capricorn – Business, Grand Scale Projects, Established Society.

How does Feeling, Womanhood, Femininty get around in Structure, Established Society, that was the question.

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To be or not to be, no, that wasn’t the question.

How to Feel while Building an Empire,

that was the question.

But now, the Gemini is gone. I hope you asked all the right questions, got all your needed answers, so you can retreat into Cancers womb and digest all that has been happening to you.

It’s not the time to think, now comes the time to feel.

Morning Contemplations – Gemini, the Magician and the Lovers

Morning Contemplations at its best!

I love how new ideas come to mind when I start making a video… My ego-intention was to talk about the Magician and the Lovers, but mostly about the Magician and his Lies, the ability of Mercury to change reality. But very soon into the video, I had no words left for the Magician, my voice was called by the Lovers, and it was so much fun!

My favourite insight was about the glyphs of Gemini and Cancer 😃

What else can you find? Here’s a small peak:

GEMINI CONTEMPLATIONS

The Magicians way to start the day
The Lovers, the glyph of Gemini and Cancer
We take in, we unite – from Gemini to Cancer and then Sagittarius
The glyph of Sagittarius – what happens when polarities unite
From projecting our shadow side on others in Lovers to harmonious union with ourselves and others in Temperance

Those were my favourite ideas that came through this video

Contemplate on the cards, enjoy!

 

The 4 of Swords and Mercury in Pisces

When your mind is outside of the box, wandering, you will start to value the box, appreciate it.

One box would be far-fetched for my Aquarius Moon, but my Mercury in Pisces reacts really well to a bunch of colourful (of course) boxes, or better to say, shapes.

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I feel like my thoughts are lured in by these simple colorful shapes, just like the unsuspecting Sailor is captured by the call of a Mermaid.

This is not the best way to get my mind organized and put my thoughts on paper. It is the only way. Mercury in Pisces, we have finally found a way to function in society. Blessed be, the two of us.

How does your mind work? And does it work? Lol

How do you live your Mercury?

Have a nice day and blessed be!

 

 

Morning Contemplations – Gemini and Friends

To study Gemini, look at the complementary sign of Sagittarius and see how they relate.

Look at the Air signs to differentiate the role of Gemini as an Air sign, and look at the squares – the ones that have a different motivation, Pisces and Virgo, so the role of Gemini can crystalize itself.

In this video I looked at the 8, 9 and 10 of Swords, next time I will look into the Magician and the Lovers.

Happy exploration!

Vječna ljubav Blizanaca, vječna ljepota Tratinčice

Slastičarnica u koju volim otići napravila je ovu prekrasnu tortu, i mene natjerala na razmišljanje…

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Meni je žuta nekako boja Blizanaca. Vedrina, opuštenost, bezbrižnost. A lijepa je i ova informacija o Tratinčici.

Znak Blizanaca se povezuje sa kartom Ljubavnika, i često je zaljubljive prirode. No, Blizanci samo vole ljude i ne znači da ne mogu voljeti vječno. Oni samo vole mnogo, mnoštvo, mnogo toga. U srcu ima mjesta za sve, jer oni iz trenutka u trenutak prazne srce i pune ga jednom osobom. Svatko od nas će se jednom naći potpuno sam u srcu Blizanca, bar na tren. Idući tren nas više neće biti, jer netko drugi mora zauzeti mjesto u toj maloj komori za pomlađivanje i preporod, srcu Blizanca.

Ali Srce pamti, iako Blizanac možda ne. Srce će u sebe prizvati onog kojeg najviše voli, i Blizanac će napreskokce, voljeći svakoga, nekoga voljeti Vječno.

Feel Gemini through Tarot and Drumming

The Lovers card is associated with Gemini, and The Magician card is associated with planet Mercury, the ruler of Gemini. The messenger, the one who acts as a channel for Divine will. The one who operates outside the perception of Good and Evil. The Trickster in the eyes of the Ego. The superficial Jester who has no taste, no tact, no measure. Truth in its ugliest form, Truth in its most ridiculous form. Play, fun, laughs. The play between two opposites, the meeting of the Lovers. Seeing the Feminine in Masculine form, seeing the Masculine in Feminine form. Rememberance of Sacred Union. Echoes of Divinity.

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To connect to the energy of the Magician and the Lovers, read this story about drumming and the relationship between Masculine and Feminine energy:

The benefits of drumming – The Magician

Forgiveness, the mutable signs and the role of Gemini

If you have been hurt, if there is a need to forgive, then you have lived the Piscean story.

We all have a Pisces experience, when we projected our own ideals to another person only to be left in shock when that other turned out to be – someone else! Someone different – from what we presumed to be true.

There is no one to blame (says Pisces, offcourse), but still the pain doesn’t go away. How to heal is sometimes How to forgive.

We start with Pisces, because that’s where it all started. And then, let’s jump around the mutable signs to see how might they help.

They are mutable, they represent change. And since forgivness is that final change of attitude towards the hurtful experience, it is only logical we turn to Gemini, Sagittarius, Virgo and Pisces for help.

Virgo, the little apothecary that brings the bitter cure.

Gemini, the light-hearted one that cuts all ties.

Sagittarius, the all-mighty one that takes us to the other side.

And Pisces, the one that lets go of the ego, and shifts, transcends into a more loving reality.

Into the reality created by Sagittarius.

This stream-of-consciousness story was my playing around with the idea of forgiveness and the steps neccesary to achieve it. I hope you will be inspired to find your own steps, and find a way to heal and forgive. Yourself and others.

Heal with Pisces – how to forgive

Heal with Gemini – Come find me, my Friend

My Friend, come find me.

I want to share my Sadness as much as I want to share my Happiness. Let me be as I am. Come as you are.

Let’s mix, a pinch of my Sadness, a pinch of your Happiness.

And let’s celebrate. Celebrate our loves as much as our losses. Together, we will learn to lose, we will learn to love, and we will learn to lose ourselves in that love.

Then, when the wild water of emotion settles, come find me again.

I need to tell you
All that I lived, all that I felt, all that I saw
And all that I know

I need to tell you
About my Sorrow
As much as about my Joy

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