Special

What do you think – what makes me so special to you?

And why do you think you haven’t noticed that my feelings are not the same?

Your passionate feelings are not shared.

Tell me in your own feeling, blame no one but yourself if you choose to take the road of blame.

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If you want relief,
if you want release,
use me as a mirage,
as a figure of forgiveness,

a figure of immaculate stillness,
where you can see yourself
as the self you used to be,
before resentment and rage became a smothering illness,
turning you into a rotten apple
planting even more rotten seeds